This was a conversation I needed to have with someone.
I back read your twitter the otherday
Ebbie says:
how far back are we talking? >>
Chris says:
Not very
Just wanted to see if you put any incriminating stuff about myself
Ebbie says:
ahaha, don't think i did
Chris says:
Nah
The stuff about me was actually quite nice
Even if they did start with 'I fucking love chris '
xD
Just looking at the dates of them
The one was when you hadn't seen anyone for three days
Another was just after you broke up with Cam
and then the graduation arc conversation we had
Ebbie says:
it's just like a bucket of nostalgia
Chris says:
It is yeah
Ebbie says:
i read back on it from time to time
it's all there
like when i got accepted to wolvo uni
before i met any of you
it's cliche and shit, but i'm glad i met you all
i think i've changed from then
i like it
Chris says:
Feeling's mutual
Ebbie says:
i was looking on my dailybooth too.
there's a photo of me on my first day in halls, and i just look like i don't want to be there.
when i left, i was sad because i didn't want to leave.
Chris says:
I spent 2 hours in an empty room on Compton
On the friday that I left
Just sitting there, gazing out the window
Ebbie says:
It's a weird feeling, isn't it?
Chris says:
Indeed
Ebbie says:
I'm looking back at my old booths
man, i've changed
Chris says:
I haven't changed much
I don't think
But yeah, I'm glad I met you. Of the girls I've met, other than Megan of course, I'm glad. I didn't think we'd be as close as we are, but I love you for that at least
Ebbie says:
Awh, you can be soppy, you bastard, but that did make me smile
Chris says:
fuck you
I was trying to be nice
*goes back to hard ass mode*
xD
Ebbie says:
it was nice, i needed that today
no ones said anything nice like that to me in months
Chris says:
Damn, why not?
Ebbie says:
dunno
i guess i don't deserve it most of the time
but that's okay
i appreciate it more when it's said that way
Chris says:
To be honest, you deserve much more
It seems that the majority of things that happen usually end with you being chewed up and spat out
To me anyway
Ebbie says:
Well, yeah, kinda of.
But I try to keep positive
Nothing's killed me yet. I've been close, but I came out the other end a stronger person
I'd still be a weak little shit if all this stuff hadn't happened
Like if I had a good family life from day one, or if Wardy had never been the way he was, or if Joshua had never died, or if Cam hadn't broken up with me
I wouldn't be who I am now.
Of course I wish that Joshua hadn't died, and that me and Cam were still together
But the rest I got over and became a better person because of it
Chris says:
I've seen you change over the past year
From meeting you, to seeing you off on that last day
You are quite grown up, as well as strong willed
You seem to bounce back, even if it takes time
Ebbie says:
I was never like that before
But even though I still adore Cam, I have to get on with things
Chris says:
You do, unfortunately
Ebbie says:
I had a bad time with that, I'm not gonna lie. I went through a patch where I could only think "Well, what's the point in me living?" And I managed to turn that into a positive thing which I never would have done before
I don't know my reason for living
I want to find it
I want to be an important person to someone. Maybe to a few people. I just want to know my reason for being here.
I can't just give up here
I've spent 19 years getting to where I am.
Chris says:
at'a girl
Ebbie says:
I'm proud of myself for coming out the other end of that alive and not doing too badly
There are bad times, but I adore them.
They make me appreciate the happier times.
