Nostalgia and Moving On.
Sunday, 20 November 2011
I know it's been an unforgivable amount of time since I wrote here. To be honest, I haven't really had all that much to talk about, and things have been kind of unbelievable and crazy, and I guess it's something I should catch up on.
It's coming to the end of the year. It's at that point where I'm starting to panic about Christmas shopping, and I have an obscene amount of Christmas cards to mail off to different parts of the world. And that's what the rest of the year will consist of; panicking about Christmas. I always feel slightly nervous when those first batch of Christmas lights go up at the start of November and the weather starts to get a little colder.
So, what has my life consisted of, really? I'd like to say I've been far too busy to talk about anything, and I've been off having adventures. I haven't. To be honest, most of my days have consisted of job hunting, Minecraft playing and Skype calls to the other side of the planet.
I think I've left out that rather small detail that I'm now, I guess, a Youtuber. Not like I've suddenly gained partnership since September or anything, but I have made a start and as of writing this, I have 146 subscribers.
Those Skype calls to the other side of the planet I mentioned? Yeah, that's because of Youtube. I know it's only been two months, but I think I have a person who is going to become ridiculously irreplaceable to me. The only reason I'm really writing this is because he isn't online because he lives in stupid Adelaide in Australia. Yes, I am this childish. No, I don't care.
Regardless of the fact that I haven't really been outside much over these past few months (that's a lie, I've been to London, not going to talk about that though), I've had so much fun it's kind of unreal. It's why I've been kind of incognito for the past month at least.
I'm in Wolverhampton, and I'm feeling very sadly nostalgic. Yesterday, I went to see Kris, and I still find it strange that Chris Black isn't hanging around, smoking weed and playing on World of Warcraft. No, anyway, the weird part for me was walking past my old room in Kent Halls. There are weird wind chimes and pillows in the window now, where before it was a stack of shot glasses from my birthday and raffle tickets that magically appeared from no where.
I felt rather sad then, because I loved that room, and I'll never see that room again.
Then I walked further down, to where Lancaster Halls were. And I saw Kris' old room that used to have this plant he called Johnathan and a stack of plates in the window. It was just dark, and empty, and that made me sad because we had so many gaming nights and raid filled nights on WoW in that room. It's where we played Halo and Wario Ware for hours, and it was somewhere I felt rather comfortable and at home.
Then there was Lee's old room, and Andy's old room. And then the kitchen where we made birthday cakes that deflated, and the window that we threw so many of Chris' things out of because of Gooch. And come to think of it, it was the window that Gooch would randomly climb through before he went missing for like a month or two.
I had so many memories that were just flashing back to me, and I have to admit, although there is a certain Australian that is making me happier than I've been in years, I miss it here. Although last year, I was poor, and starving, and stressed out beyond belief, I had some of the best times of my life in that kitchen, and in those bedrooms.
I feel like this blog was so that I could remember the good times in my life, and the painful ones. This blog has been with me for three years. It's seen my break up with Wardy, my break up with Cam, it's seen me at my lowest. But it's also been there through some of the best times of my life.
My life, right now, is at a complete stand still. I'm no further forward than I was at the start of summer. Similarly, I'm no further back. I need to work some stuff out, and then I hope that I can start keeping a blog that will be worth while. I want to start living my life, but I want to remember it. Maybe, just maybe, I'll get a new blog and start over from the beginning.
I'll keep you posted in my own way.
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