Disclaimer: This is going to double up as a diary entry, so feel free to ignore the bits that bang on about feelings too much.

This year has been amazing, yet heartbreaking in equal amounts. I'm just summing up my year here, so I'm not sure if there's going to be anything too interesting here. I'm just going to say what happened in each month.

What I had thought about doing was summing up each month with exciting stuff that happened, but I've just decided to do sort of a 'greatest hits' list.

-Turned 17.
-Met Madina Lake after sitting in the freezing cold since six that morning.
-Got a mention in Kerrang Magazine.
-Met Madina Lake again in Leeds. Stalked Mateo.
-Met Charlie Simpson. Twice.
-Saw The Delai Lama live, and got to listen to his teachings.
-Decided to go to Ecuador with my friends, and then gave up.
-Met Hayley Williams.
-Went to the Download Festival.
-Got my first proper job.
-Started back at college. Dropped English for Photography.
-Went away to Yorkshire and went to my big brothers wedding.
-Wrote a book.

And I saw a bunch of bands and comedians too.

Bands I saw in 2008
Circa Survive (x2) Fightstar (x3) Madina Lake (x3) Scutty Neighbours, Invey, We Are The Ocean (x3) LostAlone, Paramore, Black Tide, Beat Union (x2) Seether, Disturbed, The Fall Of Troy, The Subways, Motorhead, Rival Schools, Rise Against, Kiss, Simple Plan, Sign, Skindred, Job for a Cowboy, 36 Crazyfists, Alter Bridge, Biffy Clyro, Bullet For My Valentine, Pendulum, Ash, The Offspring, HIM, Glamour of the Kill, From First to Last (x2), Black Stone Cherry, Apocalyptica, Rose Tattoo, Chiodos, Elliot Minor, Coheed and Cambria, Jimmy Eat World, GunDogs, The Blackout (x2), Mindless Self Indulgence, All Forgotten, Canturbury, Last Constallation, Slaves to Gravity, Flash! Flash! Flash! Photography, Haunts, Lostprophets, The Medic Droid, Koopa, Towers of London, Imperial Leisure, Pepper and Less Than Jake.

Comedians I saw in 2008
Lou Saffire, Ivan Brackenbury, Chris Lynam (x2), Duncan Oakley, Jason John Whitehead, Gary Delaney, Rob and Skatz, Sully O'Sullivan, Jason Rouse, Andrew O'Neill, Ian Cognito, Greg Cook and Jimmy Carr.

So all in all, it's not been a bad year. <3

Yay for the laminate flooring finally going down :D

I'm very happy about that. :D

I feel really, really flattered. Charlie asked me to take part in some kind of collab channel on youtube (I can't say much about, because I know very little about it xD). Out of all the people he could have picked, I have to say, I'm very happy, and flattered that he messaged me :D

I didn't go bowling today like I thought I would. I had to go driving instead, but that's okay, because I drove on a main road and I didn't panic too much :D

I'm also having my floor replaced because the fool who put my last floor in obviously knew very little about laying floors. It's taken all of today, and it won't be finished until tomorrow, but it illiminates the problem of having holes in my floor again. (y)

Number of times I used the word 'floor' in that paragraph: four. Which is too many.

I know that there are a lot of you out there that are very young, but a lot of you who are just at that age where you're starting to make choices about what you want to do with your life, and I just want to encourage you, take nothing for granted, especially yourself and what you have to offer. There's a lot that you can do, go for it, don't second guess yourself. If you have a passion, follow it. In the future there's going to be challenging times for us all and we need the best out of everyone and judging from the people I've met here, I think we're in good hands. - Dan Green.


He's totally my hero <3

I had an amazing time last night. We stayed up until nearly five this morning, just chilling and stuff. I woke up this morning to a phone call, with my grandad telling me that it was a few hours before he came to pick me up and I got pretty sad. I really hate it when good times end. It was so brilliant. Claky is like, the best host, ever.

So I've been back and just uploading the photos from last night/early this morning to myspace.

I'm just that cool that I'll go outside for a fag in my pyjama bottoms. Oh yes.

Omg I just saw AmazingPhil on the Confused.com advert, and I actually laughed.

I'm at Claky's right now, and we've just ordered pizza online, because we like to treat him :D

Today we've been here since about nine am and I'm pretty knackered. We've already got the WKD Blue and Smirnoff Ice and we're watching Jetix right now. Lmao, fail advert.

"Become the ultimate champion of gorm!"

Claky just said "are you writing this down?"
"Yeah"
"WRITE DOWN THAT I SAID ARE YOU WRITING THIS DOWN!"

Today we've played on several different games, played Taboo, ate pizza, and then played more games, and then ordered more pizza. Right now we're watching Pokemon, and seriously, these episodes are completely SHITE. Ash is way too old, and I totally don't like it.

I've just been filmed saying that I'm updating my blog, so fun times.

I'm going to go now and stop hogging his internet, because I think the pizza's here. Speed? Yes!

I really do feel undeserving of the wonderful things that I've recieved this Christmas, and the lovely times I've had.

I've had some of the most amazing gifts ever (My favourites are probably my Studio Ghibli films, my Cloud Strife and his Motorcylce figurines, the Momiji notebook, my huuuge leather sketchbook, my crime investigation book, my Friends DVD boxset and my Yu-Gi-Oh! pillow) and I've got to spend a wonderful few days with the people that mean the most to me.

Christmas Eve was amazing. I spent an hour or so at my brothers flat eating many vegetable rolls and looking at the photos from his wedding. We then went to the playhouse in Nottingham where I met Claky and then he met my entire extended family on my dad's side. I really don't think that there's a better way to spend a Christmas eve than doing the Time Warp with your best friend and some of the people who influenced me the most when I was growing up.

I find that Christmas Day is really disappointing. I love seeing my family, but this year, it was a small dinner, and I spent most of the day on Wii Fit. I've pulled a muscle in my leg. I'm not meant to work out. The highlight of the day was getting to talk to Claky for a few minutes, because it was his birthday, and I never get to see him on his birthday. And of course, seeing my boyfriend. We had Champagne and it was really nice. And he loved the presents that I got him :D

Boxing Day is usually like my paternal family's Christmas day, but this year, everyone was busy. Tosh was at a football match, Anna was ill, and my astranged cousin remains astranged. But I did get to see my dad, and my grandparents and my cousin Stuart. Which was nice. And I love the fact that anything my grandma gets me is signed "From Santa, With Love." She can be the sweetest old woman sometimes :D

Tomorrow, I'll be at Claky's house, having lulz and generally, an awesome time. I cannot wait.

I've felt kinda sad that no matter how much I want it to happen, all the people I love can't be in the same room - not even at Christmas. I mean, my mum doesn't like my boyfriend, and my sisters in New Zealand and there's this whole conflict between my mum's side of the family and my dad's side which I don't even want to think about - lets just say that right now, I feel like I'm being pulled in so many different directions, that I don't know what way I'm supposed to go and I'm so, so close to snapping.

I love Christmas, but I hate how emotional I feel right now.

This Christmas will be stupidly busy.

22nd - Driving, then going to my boyfriends house and shopping.
23rd - Shopping with Simon. Probably going to my boyfriends house again.
24th - Pantomime! With my family and tehclakster. :D
25th - Christmas Day, so Presents, Dinner, I'm gonna ring Claky at some point, seeing Wardy.
26th - Seeing the Grand'rents and my dad, filming the promo footage for my book.
27th - Going to Claky's fo' fun times
28th - Coming back from Claky's.
29th - Maybe going bowling.
30th - Resting. All day.
31st - Spending New Years with my boyfriend.

That's about as busy as someone can be for the rest of the year, I swear. xD

I'm not making any new years resolutions that are going to benefit me health wise - for the last two years, I've said quit smoking, and that obviously hasn't happened. So instead, I've made a list of all the manga series I was to get by the end of next year.


1 - Yu-Gi-Oh
2 - Beyblade
3 - Fruits Basket
4 - Any of the new issues of Zelda that come out.
5 - Fushigi Yugi

If I could get the majority of those by the end of next year, I'd be a very happy girl :D

I finished Part 2 of the Zelda manga yesterday, and I nearly cried. It was super emotional. And Zelda tells Link that she loves him :D

I am so in favour of Link and Zelda getting married, you know? xD

Me and my friends did this thing last year, called Friendsmas, which was kinda like Christmas, just on a different day and without a big meal. This year we kinda did it again, but it was just me and Claky, and we spent about £25 on each other - as opposed to the £200 I spent on him last year xD

I usually love the last school day of the year, cause everyone can say stuff like "See you next year" and give out presents for a religious holiday, even if they're an athiest or something. And we get to watch movies in the lessons we have - in Philosophy, we got to watch Bring It On (Which happens to be a guilty pleasure of mine).

In Ethics we had a party for our teacher. It was his last day of teaching today, so we brought in food, made posters, and made a powerpoint presentation for him. By the end of it, I felt so emotional that I just burst out into tears. I'm glad to say I wasn't the only one. He was such a good teacher, and I'm going to miss him to be quite honest. So I'm just going to stick the photo from the class down below.

I've just gotten back from the Somerfield Christmas meal thing they had in a pub, and I really can't understand the people there. Don't get me wrong, they weren't all bad - as a matter of fact, there were some quite nice people.

I don't understand how some people can seem so up themselves when they have a full time job at a supermarket. Though, there were some people like that who worked on fries at McDonalds, so I suppose it must be a universal thing.

I don't even work at Somerfield, so I felt stupidly out of place. But it's nothing I wouldn't do for my boyfriend, because I do love him. Which is evident because there is no way I would have gone to a meal at a pub with a bunch of strangers otherwise.

I feel really lost for the stupidest reason.

I've spent the last month or so watching Yu-Gi-Oh - you know, the good series, with Atem and Yugi in and that. I've watched every episode from Season Zero to Season Five and I finished watching it all about an hour ago. Now I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do, because whenever I was bored, I'd watch an episode of yu-gi-oh to pass the time, and they ended to good series. I think I need to start finding the manga - to be honest, I did prefer the Japanese names to the English ones. Anzu-Chan, Honda-Kun and Jounouchi-Kun ftw!

I always get attached to shows that end - Yu-gi-oh, Beyblade (the episodes with Kai and Tyson in. The new series won't even have bit beasts in, so that can fuck right off), Fruits Basket, 8 Simple Rules, things like that. Then they just finish and I'm left like "oh, well, what now?" And I always get attached to particular characters too - like Isaac Mendez from Heroes. He didn't even make it to the end of the first season. And then I start liking another character, and she fucking dies as well. I'm unlucky when it comes to television programmes I swear. And the characters I hate, don't. Fucking. Die.

The only things that can never end are soaps. I hate soaps. I've even stopped watching Hollyoaks now because that just started to get way to depressing and annoying. I wish soaps would all end with a satisfying conclusion. We can all dream, right?I think I've rambled enough about television. But on a side note, can anyone remember when Pokemon was actually good? You know, the episodes with Eric Stuart in?

Here's a list of things that piss me off. A lot.

People who cross the road when there's cars coming - This annoys me because school kids tend to dash out in front of cars which are about two metres away from them, therefore, causing them to break, hold up the traffic and thereby causing my bus to get caught in the traffic when it's already fifteen minutes late.

Old women - I'm aware of the fact that if I live long enough, I'll think that baige and floral patterns are the way forward in my attire. Your clothes annoy me. And stop moaning.

Mr. Rankin - My photography teacher. He's a bastard, and he's a soul destroyer. End of.
Edit -- After I posted this, I went on to compare Mr. Rankin to Marik from Yu-Gi-Oh. I genuinley believe that he steals peoples souls and send them to the Shadow Realm. Claky laughed.

People who say they aren't fat, when they blatently are - This one may sound mean. But oh my god, you know you have to lose weight when you're in your mid-twenties and you're panting after sitting down on a bus.

Mopeds - You're all bastards. Apologise to Claky now.

Cheap Eyeliner - Why the hell do you hurt my eyes so much?

My phone - I don't know why, it just irritates me. Fucking touch sensative things do.


Really, that's about enough annoyance I can fathom for today without going into too much detail on my personal situation.

I have my first driving lesson in four minutes and I'm freakin' excited.

But nervous. I can't believe I'll be in control of something that could potentially kill someone.

o___O

I find the concept of public transport bizarre. I don't know if I'm the only person who thinks like this, but I just find it odd that everytime I get on a bus, I put my life in the hands of a complete stranger. I find it weird with taxi's as well. And more often than not, the bus driver looks like a complete nutcase - kinda like they've been let out of a mental asylum to drive the bus around for a couple of hours. I also believe bus drivers are mostly sadists.

But like you'll want to listen to THAT theory xD

I always feel sad when it gets to December. This is because I always feel a bit down about the whole New Years thing. I get very reflective, and nostalgic, and sometimes it can be a bit negative.

This year, I feel particularly sad. To the point where I was up half of the night thinking about the amazing things that have happened this year. I've adored 2008. I went to my first music festival, I met Madina Lake twice, I've seen a ton of comedians live, I've seen the Dalai Lama live and I've gotten to listen to his teachings - most of which were in Tibetan.

I don't even know what to think. Now that it's December, I can say I turn into an eighteen year old next month - you know, take that big step into adulthood, and I'm totally not ready. It scares me to be quite honest, because then I get a ton of responsibilities added to my school work, and I'm afraid.

Ugh, I need to get ready for college since I have Psychology first thing.